Cincinnati City Councilman Chris Seelbach posted a long note on his Facebook page, a note that was reportedly left behind by Leelah Alcorn, who was born Joshua Alcorn. It reportedly had been scheduled to post on Tumblr after the teen died.
Alcorn, 17, according to police, died Sunday after being hit by a tractor trailer in a suburb of Cincinnati, Ohio. Officers from the Ohio Highway Patrol told ABC News they are investigating the death as a suicide and looking into the note.
Alcorn's mother Carla Alcorn posted that Alcorn was killed while out for a walk.
"My sweet 16-year-old son, Joshua Ryan Alcorn went home to heaven this morning," wrote Carla Alcorn on Facebook, according to WCPO. "He was out for an early morning walk and was hit by a truck. Thank you for the messages and kindness and concern you have sent our way. Please continue to keep us in your prayers."
In the note, Alcorn details the difficulty she said she faced growing up.
"The life I would've lived isn't worth living in… because I'm transgender," read a portion of the post. "I could go into detail explaining why I feel that way, but this note is probably going to be lengthy enough as it is. To put it simply, I feel like a girl trapped in a boy's body, and I've felt that way ever since I was 4," the note states.
Alcorn detailed her experience coming out as gay and wrote that her peers and school were receptive, but that her parents were not. She said she was taken to Christian therapists, who did not help her overcome her depression.
"After 10 years of confusion I finally understood who I was. I immediately told my mom, and she reacted extremely negatively, telling me that it was a phase, that I would never truly be a girl, that God doesn't make mistakes, that I am wrong," the note states.
Sad as it is, I still can't figure out why teens blame their parents, classmates, siblings, neighborhood or religion when they commit suicide. He was 17! In less than a year he could have walked away from all that (in some states 16-17) & did whatever he/she wanted to. Why jump in front of a truck when he could have just walked away from it all in less than a year? There's something more to this story. He was on FB & tumbler, so he didn't have a sheltered life, & knew acceptance was right outside his mom's door. I suspect mental problems, drugs, or alcohol to make a teen do something this extreme.
Welfare & aid would have been more available to him for living in an unlivable situation at home in Ohio as a transgendered. Plenty would have hired him/her, even unskilled as long as she was willing to work & honest. I'm getting old, am disabled, gay, & a transvestite, but I still have to work every day if I want to eat & pay my rent. (donations are to support sites, I can pay my rent & eat without them, but there wouldn't be any sites anymore). I worked almost every day to support myself since my early teens. Before that, doing dishes, cooking, cleaning, chores around the property, while still getting good grades in school was mandatory at home as soon as we were able to walk & talk. Failure to do so would get an ass whipping, or worse from my parents.
You don't have to be a man to support yourself or live in the outside world away from your parents. I see plenty of girls in my town working as young as 16 at real jobs to help out at home, or saving up to move out, or go to college, or by 17 already getting their own modest place. Just because you're transgendered does not give you the right to lay in a bed of flowers in a pretty dress & expect to be supported & paid for it. To survive you still have to do something.
Some people get lucky or get lots of support from their parents, & their parents have lots of resources available to spoil them. But for most of us gays, or transgendered, & most other people, we're in charge of our own fate. It may not always be easy or pretty, but after a lifetime, looking back at it all, you probably wouldn't have changed anything even if you could.
I often thought about what if I could have the power to go back & change something knowing what I know now, with that vast possibility of an infinite universe or infinite universes where almost anything is possible (but I don't believe infinity would produce monkeys typing the works of Shakespeare or Betty ruling a sissy planet full of pretty dresses where all evil is banned. With infinite amount of the dice rolling with infinite dice amount of dice it's just not "probable" in 10 to the power of a trillion, times 10 to the power of a trillion years).
Good golly, to just correct a simple mistake where I should have turned left instead of right, would have made me rich. But I wouldn't have met or been friends with some really wonderful people or had some really amazing experiences. Many of my most wonderful life experiences would never have happened. I probably wouldn't have even had the same dog, cats, or birds I did over my life. Maybe Betty's & the the gay & TG newsgroups that preceded it would have never existed, which was wondrous fun for me & others. If I got rich because I did "patent" an idea or system that I thought was common knowledge (so didn't), I probably wouldn't have been a primary activist in the Mattachine Society, & the Gay Liberation front in my youth which seriously fought & demonstrated for rights we take for granted today.
It's a lot easier for gay or transgender teens today. They don't go out in protests today to get run down by cop cars & motorcycle cops anymore. The last protest I attended the cops ran down the protesters with cars & motorcycles. Many of us, teens included were severely injured, under Captain Kennedy's "prostitution & degenerates" command. If you weren't a normal clean-cut straight person, you were legally a degenerate with no rights.
To all the teens out there, suicide is not an option in this day & age. It's just incredibly stupid & foolish, or there are other problems to address rather than just being transgendered. If you're scared to walk away, here's a hint. You don't need an expensive i-phone, ipad, & top of the line mac to walk away from it all. My Samsung I got for $49 with a mail-in rebate 4 years ago, & cheap commitment to it's service provider for a year does an excellent job. It will do anything any ipad or iphone can do, plus more. Betty's is your best option to learn how. My dual 3.466 cpu primary computer just turned 10 years old. With only 2gb of RAM I challenge any new computer to do better, safer, & more secure than it.
I get my FB, Twitter, & text on the Samsung phone without any slow or expensive data plan. So the phone service is cheap. Get online with a cheaper, faster plan on a real computer. You can get an amazing used or re-furbished computer for $99 with a warranty. Plugs into your TV. Starting out you get a small used or refurb TV. You don't need cable TV service. You can get it all TV off an ordinary TV antenna & the internet. Learn to cook too. Save a ton on food, it tastes better, & is healthier. Shop around for your best prices on it.
Don't commit suicide! But to even consider that, you may have other problems or issues far beyond transgender problems. No teen should EVER commit suicide because of being transgendered regadless of any parent or religion in these modern times.
Betty's & their friends will find aid, jobs, & housing for you. It may be some work, but a wonderful adventure. Just get out if it's unbearable. You'll love it. Beware of dirty offers to "live in". People prey on young or inexperienced people. Sex is not an option if you're under 18, unless it's with someone you're attracted to close to your own age (most states won't prosecute sleeping with somebody close to their own age). Or wait till your 18 to do whatever you want... certainly better than killing yourself. Stay independent & on your own unless you know the person well & know exactly what you're getting into in a "live in" situation. As long as you're willing to work, try to get along with people, & are honest, there's jobs or a happy, comfy habitat for anyone.
You may not get rich at first or ever, but if you're a good person & try hard, you can be cosy & happy. Definitely much better than suicide, or wiping it all out with drugs, booze, or going through depression. I'm going through a rough time in my life right now. Difficult, & sometimes depressing for me these days. But I had a wonderful life, & almost ever day is a wondrous adventure.
Someday as my health fails more, if it gets unbearable, & I feel my final tasks in life are finished I may consider suicide. But right now I still have too much loose ends & missions to accomplish. Under 30, you got a long time to change things, work with stuff, & a long life ahead to do whatever you want to with it. Don't let drugs, booze, parents, or preachers do the talking for you. You got a big brain, use it, think about stuff on different angles, not just one way. You got at least a half a century ahead of you unless you're foolish, careless or stupid. You shouldn't be stupid just by being transgendered unless you made it so. Everybody has their gifts. Find yours, deploy them, & be happy! There will always be hard days & nice days, that's how life is. It makes no difference if you're transgendered. It's just how thing are.
http://abcnews.go.com/US/leelah-alcorn-transgender-teens-reported-suicide-note-makes/story?id=27912326
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