In the News (with pictures & videos)

[Betty]

Having a rough time surviving as my COPD continues to get more severe. But I have some good days too.

Getting ready for some changes & a possible move soon... if the changes & move itself don't kill me. My condition improved just before the weekend until yesterday afternoon. But now it's deathly worse again & am absolutely terrible.

Dramatically rapid fall in the barometer & high humidity probably is a contributing factor.

[Betty]

One of the highest-ranking officers in the California National Guard told lawmakers on Tuesday that the state will not discharge transgender soldiers from its ranks — even as President Trump’s administration makes strides in doing so.

“As long as you fight, we don’t care what gender you identify as,” said Maj. Gen. Matthew Beevers, who serves as assistant adjutant general for the California National Guard. "Nobody's going to kick you out.” he said.

An estimated 13,763 transgender service members currently face dismissal across the nation, according to the National Center for Transgender Equality.

https://www.advocate.com/politics/2019/2/07/defying-trump-calif-national-guard-wont-discharge-trans-troops?

[Angela M...]

I always think about you when the weather changes and hope you are OK. Are you moving someplace with easier access for you and maybe closer to family? That would be helpful if you were near somebody that could look out for you and help a little. Maybe better for your work too for people dropping things off. Hope all goes well with that and it does not kill you. 

[Betty]

Maybe I might get a place closer to someone I know. But because I'll also need more assistance around the house, & for the move, I'll lose some privacy. I may have to purge my sissy stuff.

Easy enough to lock down, & encrypt all computers, drives & files. I should have plenty of private time to get online too. But my sissy life may be reduced to digital rather than physical. Too many people just wouldn't understand the sissy side of things, & I may have to have them poke around the house for me, or come in to take care of the cats if I'm away in a hospital for the day or a few days.

It's also time to admit that I should prepare for the end of life while I'm still able to. There's already been a few times I was near death since December 2017. It would be nice to tie up some loose ends, & leave no surprises behind if I don't pull through the next time.

At this point maybe I could go on another 10 years if I'm very lucky, or have another turn for the worse again in a week & be gone.

[Betty]

Notre Dame Cathedral fire, aftermath, and a look inside.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3iY7CmQHvuU&t=7s

Produced, processed, mixed, & edited by me.

[marybethsanford]

Maybe I might get a place closer to someone I know. But because I'll also need more assistance around the house, & for the move, I'll lose some privacy. I may have to purge my sissy stuff.

Easy enough to lock down, & encrypt all computers, drives & files. I should have plenty of private time to get online too. But my sissy life may be reduced to digital rather than physical. Too many people just wouldn't understand the sissy side of things, & I may have to have them poke around the house for me, or come in to take care of the cats if I'm away in a hospital for the day or a few days.

It's also time to admit that I should prepare for the end of life while I'm still able to. There's already been a few times I was near death since December 2017. It would be nice to tie up some loose ends, & leave no surprises behind if I don't pull through the next time.

At this point maybe I could go on another 10 years if I'm very lucky, or have another turn for the worse again in a week & be gone.

When I had all my troubles that purge was taken out of my hands but it was kind of a God send in someways.  Now in the house I share I've got a room, bathroom and a small office setup with a computer that's private.  I do have a few hours a week when I'm alone which is cherished but I can't do much any more so even with the time it's mostly in my mind.   The good thing is I've taken care of nearly everything that has to be taken care of.

[Angela M...]

Hey Betty & marybethsanford, I guess when we get "up there" in age the reality is to face the fact that we need to prepare and maybe even purge our hobbies but it pains me to throw anything out these days as I have done so too many times in the past. I recently decided to clean out my workshop of tools I no longer use or need, giving some to the young neighbour who bought the house next door a few years ago and also to the Habitat for Humanity group for sale in their charity shop. I then rounded up the boxes and containers full of my girly things. I found I have four large plastic containers and three large boxes full of things and the more I delved into them the more memories came flooding back and I could hardly throw anything away. I nkow at some point it needs to happen and I may need to downsize my home too as it is just too hard to manage and costly also to pay people to do a job you are not really satisfied with. I have numerous little health problems but Arthritis is my worst sometimes keeping me in bed for days. The other things are nagging at me all the time but I just try to live with them and all of them together are not as bad as Betty's so I pray for you both to whatever God up there can help. My mom lived to be 90 and sometime I hope I have her genes but then other times I think I don't want to suffer like she did the last year or so of her life. Anyway all we can do is hope we have more time left than we think and then face the reality of living within our confines.
 

[jeangurl]

Ladies what does it matter what people find in regard to our girlie things when we are gone
As long as there is nothing that affects others i.e. identifies someone who doesn't wish to be what the heck if we are gone 
Luv Jeangurl

[Angela M...]

Hey jeangurl, I know what you mean but I don't want to leave this stuff for family to find and then think less of me. Sure it would not affect me as I will not be here but I would rather they not discover my other life if I can help it. I am pretty sure nobody who knows me would ever think I had a real girly side and wore panties and tights almost every day of my life. I am pretty sure my mother never told my brother and sister about my other self even though she had discovered my girl clothes several times. She pretty much knew about my girl side or she would not have taught me so many girl things like cooking and sewing and knitting or looking after the house. She was proud of my first apartment and how well I kept things and asked to bring her friends round to see the place several times after I was moved in and settled. I would throw wine and cheese parties for them and my friends as well and do a Christmas open house with a roaring fire in the dining room fireplace when they would walk over after church as it was close by. Probably the only time my father told somebody how proud he was of me that I knew of.

[Angela M...]

Boy each time I read something I posted I realize how effected I was by my father wanting a mans man for a son but finally excepting that I would not be that guy. Oh well he had my little brother to follow in his footsteps and that he did, joining Scouts and playing hockey and baseball etc. Even his son as quiet and shy as he was, grew into a good hockey player in his teens. Dad only saw his grandson play as a Pee Wee player though before he passed on.